The Greatest Gift Sobriety Gave Me

The greatest gift that my nearly one year of sobriety has given me is the knowledge that I don’t need a substance or even other people to be happy.  For the first time in my life I am happy on my own and doing my own thing.  I am the most comfortable in my own skin that I have ever been.  This past year has been about finding myself and figuring out who I am.  I’ve looked at it as an adventure, like I’m on this mission of discovery.  I’m discovering how to overcome this anxiety that has controlled my entire life.
My sobriety has given me confidence.  Confidence to tell my story.  Confidence to be me.  Confidence that I overcome anything.  When you live through a bunch of shit, you no longer sweat the small stuff.  I no longer worry what others think about me and what I’m doing.  I know how to stay in my own lane and pick my battles.  And quite frankly, most battles are not worth my time because I value my time more.  Time becomes a precious thing when you know yours could’ve been up by now.
Through this new found independence and confidence, I have found happiness.  I wake up each day with a smile on my face and a pep in my step.  It’s a great feeling to be free of something that has held you captive for so long.  I’m just overly thankful and grateful that I have this chance to rebuild a new life and live it to the fullest.  It’s a feeling I’ll never take for granted and I hope never goes away.  Very early in my sobriety when I was feeling good and enjoying that “honeymoon period”, someone told me that the honeymoon period doesn’t have to end.  And while the newness and freshness of my sobriety is bound wear off over time, it is true that this happiness in my sobriety does not have to end.
To keep the feeling going, I realize that it is important to keep challenging myself and taking on new adventures that I otherwise would not be able to if I were still using.  I continue to work on developing and growing Sober Friends Club and the subscription box business I have created.  I want to step outside of my comfort zone and speak more about my story of recovery.  I want to continue to overcome my anxiety and learn to be more comfortable in unfamiliar situations.  I want to network and help others.  I want to keep advocating and educating to help squash the stigma of recovery from substance abuse.  I just want to keep on keeping on.